November 2011
1 post
Registering for my, hopefully, last semester of college tonight.
To anyone and everyone who has doubted me, fuck you. To everyone who has been there to be my rock, my shoulder to lean on, thank you. I will forever be grateful.
I am so proud that I have stuck to my major. Come May 2012, I will make Biochemistry my bitch.
October 2011
1 post
My heart may be colder, but at least my eyes stay dry.
September 2011
6 posts
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"You are more powerful than you think you are."
We are at an age where we should not have any inhibitions about fulfilling our dreams— we have no anchor holding us down; nothing to lose, but everything to gain. We all have a calling; we will all do something great, whether or not it will give you fame, should not matter though. As long as you are genuine and passionate, your hardwork will be acknowledged.
The longer I feel this emptiness, the colder my heart becomes.
And, of course, these songs still remind me of you.
August 2011
6 posts
HAHAHA. i was so focused on “what is wrong with me?” that i failed to ever ask “what the fuck is wrong with you?” i thought time wasn’t on my side. i thought this was karma. but, in actuality, this was life telling me to open my eyes and to realize that i am worth more than a second option; that i don’t deserve to have my emotions played with; that i should...
Why should I feel any less about love than when I was actually in love? Why shouldn’t I believe in it anymore? Yes, I did fall out of love, but that’s life. I’ve experienced ALL (well, most) of the ups and downs; everyone can vouch for me on that. But, most importantly, I’ve learned lessons that some don’t learn until much later in life.
Until I find someone to...
i know what youre ready to be, but it isnt with me, so i’m ready to leave you alone.
And as soon as I free my thoughts from
any trace of you, something reminds me of how happy I once was with you.
July 2011
6 posts
I’m caught between a crossroads… again. Do I play the same game? Or do I just give up completely? There would be nothing sweeter than finally having the upperhand. But in the end, nothing would be genuine. It’s really a lose, lose. But like I said, nothing is sweeter than winning the “game”.
It’s on. Better not slip up ;)
I’d rather fill this void with my faith than with constant thoughts of you.
I just want what I can’t have and everytime I think its finally going in the right direction, i just end up starting at square one again.
June 2011
15 posts
I just want a pair of Louboutins, is that too much to ask for? Nothing too crazy, just a nice nude colored pair. Either I wait until I have my big girl job or find a rich boy to date… whichever one comes first :P
Places, songs, and seemingly minute things always remind me of you. But when I come down from that short-lived moment on Cloud 9, I just look next to me and realize that everything will just always be, just that, a memory.
Today as I was driving, with my own thoughts lingering in my head, I stopped and realized… here I am on this morning commute with people who are fighting battles that might be the same as mine or even worse. And with every car I passed, I wondered what his or her story could be.
What are the scars that his or her smile is hiding? What are the burdens that weigh down his or her shoulders?...
Your charm keeps me wrapped around your finger so tightly.
Just when I thought I had the upperhand, you showed me otherwise.
I fell so quickly for you, but you weren’t there to catch me. So now, I’m left here with just the memories of the butterflies you gave me. But don’t get it twisted, I’m not a weak bitch— just a hopeless romantic with a big heart to give you.
“Pretend to the end that you don’t fear change, don’t admit that your...”
– Beautiful Lasers
Still at a crossroads.
I need to learn to be more patient & not so definite. I need to learn how to “play the game” & protect my heart. I need to learn to be more articulate with my thoughts because they sometimes come out wrong. But most importantly, I need to learn that I should never be just an option.
So, last night I met this girl. The guys described her as the perfect girlfriend. And just in the short period of time I spent with her, I felt the same way. She didn’t have a random tantrum; she wasn’t clinging all over her boyfriend; she did the dishes even when she didn’t even use one; she was cool, calm, & collected. Her boyfriend already wants to marry her, but she said...
May 2011
34 posts
I’ve missed the Philippines so much. Im always jealous of all the family that everyone has back in the states. The closest ones to me are all the way in Cali. Nothing beats just being together and laughing together.
I needed this trip so much. To help clear my head & straighten it out; to escape the drama that I’ve encountered this semester; and to remember that without family...
“Sometimes, it’s not the person you miss. It’s the feelings and moments you had...”
– (via yanilavign3)
another year done, another year closer to...
my mom keeps telling me… “you are meant to do something big, i know it. maybe not now, maybe not in college, but you are meant to do something big.”
this semester has been filled with crazy memories— from the bar nights to the all nighters. i have met AMAZING people— even though some have come and gone, they have all taught me something, whether they know it or...
Adele's voice just pierces through my soul.
Vids to be posted soon.
If I have not love, then I am nothing.: The... →
caseybee:
Some people may think it as crazy to stay with someone that magnifies every imperfection you harbor as a person, but in my opinion, this type of relationship is one of the most stable of all.
To me, there are two types of people in a relationship: the ones worth chasing, and the…
But then, sometimes, enough is enough. I got sick of trying to help my boyfriend better...
1000 knives in my heart, but its my own foolishness that put them there.
